the thought of going through this again.

The thought of having to go through all of the infertility stuff to have another baby just really sucks! It's been 4years since i was pregnant, and i always said "if i only have just one child, i would be happy." but is it so wrong of me to want more? to go through all of this again with a child in tow?
i remember sitting in the waiting room watching a lady walk through with a stroller with a child on board. i admit that deep inside i was pissed at this lady that i had never met before...why? because she already had her child...i wanted mine... well as selfish as my thought was sitting in that waiting room. i am now in her situation. why should'nt i want a second,third or fourth baby? why does my desire need to be put on the back burnner because i have to go through so much to get the final result? The answer is....i shouldnt feel guilty. i shoudnt have to endure the stares or comments. just like i shouldnt have made that judgment call on that lady trying to get her second blessing.